Tuesday, July 29, 2014

FIFTY POUNDS

HALF WAY THERE!!!
As of this morning I have made it to exactly 50 pounds lost since March 22nd!  I honestly can't believe I have stuck with it this long.  And I'm not ready to quit, although I have to admit I'm only giving it about 85% at this point in the game. Life really gets in the way, temptations abound, and adrenaline runs low!  But I'm chugging along, correcting mistakes as I go.  My coach asked me to consider BEING a coach.  My gut response was "No Way!" I'm not good enough! I fail too much and I still have so far to go myself.  But as I've thought about it I realize it's not doing it perfectly that makes a good coach....it's picking myself up every time I fall.  And that I've done.  I've got scraped knees (or more accurately, chocolate on my chin) to prove it!!
But I won't be coaching any time soon.  I'm juggling far too many things in life right now.  But it's not out of the question. 
All of you who have read my blog, encouraged me, and shared advice have been my backbone.  THANK YOU SO MUCH for supporting me!
I have decided to celebrate with a hair cut and color in the near future.  I'll post pics.

Saturday, July 26, 2014

Week 18: Ropes Course

This past week I lost just one pound.  I'm still glad the scale keeps going down, but I know I can do better.  You see, I've had trouble with temptations and nibbling, and with hunger in general.  From a Medifast/Take Shape For Life perspective, this is not good.  If I stick with the program 100% I should not feel hungry and the temptations should be less.  But from a practical perspective, I have been seriously restricted for 4 months, and I've had to deal with so much food around me that I can't  have.  100% seems unrealistic, and yet if I don't do it 100% then I'm reducing the science of Medifast to just a calorie counting program.  It's much more than that.  I want the fat-burning state that I had a month ago, but I don't see how I can be THAT strong without isolating myself.  I've really been trying my best, but I do falter a lot.  I have NEVER stayed with a program this long, or lost this much (my previous "record" was when I lost 40 pounds in a year in my mid twenties). 
So all I can do is continue to take one day at a time.  I'm, once again, starting my week super-focused, even as I've had to shop for groceries for my family and put it all away in the fridge and pantry, knowing most of it I can't have.

ROPES COURSE
On a very positive, proud note, yesterday I went with my family to a local indoor/outdoor amusement park.  I felt confident to get into a go cart (used to worry I was too big), but I didn't drive (still working on confidence in trying new things).  But I tried it...step one!  Then I tried a ropes course...also used to be too big, but now I'm well under the max. weight.  But I don't care for heights. I did it because I knew in my heart that I could and I wanted to prove it to myself.  So I harnessed up and up I went!  But wow, that was scary!  Looks much easier from below!  And my brain didn't acknowledge the harness I was in...it just chanted "You're gonna die, you're gonna die!!" But as I watched about 8 preteen girls dancing around on the ropes like they were no big deal, I decided I couldn't be shown up!  And I SLOWLY crept across course #1, then onto another, and another.  I was ready to say, "Okay, I've proved enough" when I realized I still had to cross BACK in order to go DOWN!  And so I did...because I really wanted to go back down! 
I'm a survivor!  Bucket list down by one!

Saturday, July 19, 2014

Week 17

Day 119, week 17, down 2.2 pounds for a total of 46.6.
Any suggestions for my 50 pound celebration?  (Goal is 100)

Friday, July 18, 2014

Weeks 15-16

Again I blame my busy summer for not posting regularly! Things have been pretty steady, meaning I have had the same ups and downs with traveling/events, etc., which bring temptations.  But the scale continues to creep downward, so I'm happy. 
Week 15 I lost another two pounds, and week 16 another 1.4 (and yes, those points me a lot to me!). That made my total  44.4 pounds!  Tomorrow is my next weigh.

I am so much happier these days, and for the most part I'm more energetic.  I'm not ashamed of how I look, and sometimes I'm proud of my appearance.  I see my old habits and justifications slipping back now and then.  Sometimes when I have cheated but still lose weight I think "well, I got away with it last week!".  I need to stay more focused on my new positive habits.  I'm currently reading Dr. A's Habits of Health.  Excellent read and very practical motivation.

I'd love to hear comments from any other Medifast users, or answer questions from those of you who are curious about the program.  Let me restate that I had hit bottom more than once and had failed at weight loss over and over and over.  This program was what made the difference for me.  I thought I was hopeless, but it gave me hope...and quickly!  And the success is what drives me to continue to goal (which, by the way, is to lose 100 pounds).

Thanks for your views and comments!

Tuesday, July 1, 2014

Week 14

I'm a couple days late in posting...busy summer!  I lost two pounds in week 14 for a total of 41 pounds (in 98 days).  Steady as she goes....  Facing "food events" (like family reunion, vacations, etc) are still my greatest difficulty.  If I can just avoid foods I can't have, I'm golden! :)  But I can't, and so I continue to struggle and learn.  I just purchased Dr's A's Habits of Health and I'm learning some new strategies.  Onward and .....Downward!